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She knows herself well, and during these moments that she acts awkward towards a certain person, she knows she's got it again, she's got that feeling again. She can be sweet if she wants to but she's too conscious about things. She gives meaning to each and every detail of thier conversation, thier interaction, and his interaction with other people. She becomes jealous for no reason at all, and tells herself she's ok, even if the whole world knows that she's not. She keeps her feelings to herself and her little self made world. She's afraid to share. No, she's not selfish, she's just passive, trying not to complicate her world. She always has second thoughts and her choices are mostly for the sake of her family and never for herself. She's struggling, sometimes she's thingking of breaking the rules and following her heart but deep inside she knows that won't even make her any happier. ..