che's despidida

It was supposed to be a busy Saturday for me if only laziness didn't strike. I had many plans, play badminton in the morning, play disc in the afternoon, and watch the most awaited reunion concert of the Eraserheads in the evening. None of these plans pushed through though, why? well, laziness has its own way of sneaking up on me, hehe, and all I did this whole Saturday was to bury my butt in the couch and watch CSI:Miami on dvd. Lazy.

I came home late last night because I attended a despidida party for my colleague back in my previous office. It was nice to know everyone was making a career move but then arriving there gave me a sense of nostalgia. It was my second home. It was my school, I had teachers, classmates, bestfriends, principal, and enemies. I love my life back there. Although I didn't make much out of my pay, I love the simple life, the people, the everyday conversations, real life lessons, everything except the work pressure and management. That's why I had to look for another work that will give me more than just the monthy pay but the also the opportunity for a career growth.

I was a little bit shy when I entered the floor, I didn't know if I still know the people there so I hesitated entering until I bumped into my previous officer who actually didn't recognized me until I blocked her way. She was a bit shocked when she saw me and had to take a second look before she recognized it was me. She said, "Baby! ikaw ba yan? ang payat mo!". I wasn't expecting people to comment on me losing weight. I already did lose a couple of pounds when I was still there, and they had already noticed that. I haven't been checking on my weight lately but I know I still weighed the same. But everyone was saying "ang payat mo!", someone even said, "syet! and payat mo!", I would have preferred if they said, "ang ganda mo ngayon", hehe.

It was the usual get-together-despidida eating style by the round table and of course the never ending pancit malabon, bbq, and shanghai, only now it came with an ice cream and a cake. Thank you for Con's convincing power that the officer chipped in for the food and it made everyone's stomach smile. I didn't eat though, except for the chocolate cake. Of course the party wouldn't have been complete if there was no teasing and funny antics from Con and Verlyn, and a little drama from Lheiza, hehe. The party ended with the opening of Smirnoff, hehe.

I wonder whose despidida is next.

career move???

Normal friday, until I got to the office. I woke up the usual time. I don't usually rush on fridays. We have no lates, so no need for rushing. I rode the usual jeepney route, walked the same almost 1 km road I have to tread everyday. Though tiring, I already considered it as an exercise to work out my lazy butt. I arrived at the office at around 9:15 am, our time is 9:00 am, but as I said, there are no lates. I set up my laptop, logged in my phone, logged in to yahoo and checked my emails. Suprisingly a colleague popped me a message and I know it was in a serious tone. I know there wa someting and I was right! My colleague gave up her positon as the admin asst for our hub and I was the next option. Oh no!!!..

"Marielle...Marielle..., let's talk". My manager's voice felt like drumbeats. I know I can't refuse her offer for the position of admin asst. I'm still in a probationary status, obviously I have to be obedient. Declining her offer might give her an impression that I'm ineffective and incapable and that is not good for someone waiting for her regularization.

The only reason I would deny the offer is that I don't like her perfectionist-can't express myself-bahala ka na attitude. It makes me go crazy. She's a perfectionist and that's fine, what I'm afraid of is that she could not express what she wants, lack of words. Also, she's demanding in a moody sense. I have nothing against my manager. She's a good one when she's not in a bad mood that is.

If it won't only be a career ending move to decline the position, I may have never accepted it. But what's a probationary employee got to do? I just hope this adds to my career movement..hehe

a not so comfortable comfort zone

I have been trying to get out of my comfort zone for quite sometime. I know I did only to realize that it's a different comfort zone.

People say you have to get out of your comfort zone for us to grow. But what happens if you get stuck in it and can't or should I say, won't move?

I moved out of my old work 5 months ago and by that time I was convinced that I was growing, that I am going to experience the world outside the building behind the beautiful building, but no! I realized that I still find myself comfortably sitting in my comfort zone. This is because I didn't see that I have 2. I may have moved out of first but I feel that I'm going to get stucked in the second.

I am not an independent person. I have lived my whole life with my parents and in my parent's house. I have followed each and every rule they impost. I am not the kind that argues, I am more of someone who just accepts as long as it doesn't affect me much. I hate complications. I have been wanting to live independently and had tried to ask persmission from my parents which they affirmed. But why I am I still living in thier house? I realized that besides the lack of financial resources to support my "living independently" I also lack courage to be on my own.

Calleigh : sometimes it hard to have a family
Horatio : sometimes it harder not to...

- CSI : Miami

race log

March 2011 19
Athena All Women's run
bib no: -
venue: Mall of Asia
category: 10k
time: 1:10:00
pace: 0:07:00

March 2010 17
Merrell Adventure Trail Run
bib no: -
venue: Wawa, Montalban
category: 15k
time: 2:00:00++
pace: -

March 2010 13
Pinay in Action
bin no: 04
venue: Mall of Asia
category: 10k
time: 1:08:55
pace: 0:06:86

February 2010 14
TNF Thrill of the Trail
bib no: 819
venue: Nuvali, Sta Rosa, Laguna
category: couples 11k
time: 1:33:12
pace: 0:08:46

April 2009 5
Airspeed
bib no: 1048
venue: Mall of Asia
category: 5k
time: 0:37:56
pace: 0:07:35

March 2009 29
Pinay In Action
bib no: 04
venue: Mall of Asia
category: 5k
time: 0:38:45
pace: 0:07:69

February 2009 22
RUNew
bib no: 3345
venue: Mckinley Hill, Taguig
category: 5k
time: 0:40:14
pace: 0:08:03

October 2008
Adidas King Of The Road
venue: Bonifacio High Street, Bonifacio Global City
category: 1ok
time: untimed

ako ay... at hindi ako...

AKO AY...

- pinanganak noong Dec 3, 1983
- pinangalanang Marielle Lazarte
- panganay sa aming dalawa ng sister ko
- aloof at awkward
- poker face
- shy
- iyakin
- nadescribe sa HS yearbook na "impregnable wall"
- tumatakbo, sumasagwan, umaakyat, pumepedal
- sentimental
- ill-tempered
- tapos ng BSC Major in Economics sa Unibersidad ng Santo Tomas
- babae
- madalas kilos lalake
- mataas ang pride (bumababa rin naman madalas)
- maganda (pwede mag buhat ng sariling bangko)
- mabait kung sa mabait
- madaling mahulog (sa hagdan...hehe)
- hindi naman nagmamadali (pero better early than late...hehe)

HINDI AKO...

- magiging old maid (calling all the universe to please conspire with me...hehe)
- masungit
- suplada
- over confident, tama lang
- confrontational (nakakailang)
- argumentative (resputuhin ang kanya kanyang opinion)
- tomboy!!! (please lang, mukha naman akong babae)
- magaling magsulat pero ginagawa ko
- marunong kumanta sa tono pero kumakanta pa rin ako
- tanga
- magiging old maid (inuulit ko lang para hinde makalimutan)
- manhid