a broken heart

She has a boyfriend. She kept it to me for 7 months and we were really close. Wtf??!!! I was shocked when I heard the news, but I was not mad, I was really happy. I was even teary eyed. She called this morning and told me there was something important she had to tell me. When she spilled it out she was worried that I would get angry. But to my surprise, I didn't and I was happy, I know I was happy because again it worked for other people.

Later this day, I realized, if we were really friends and if we were really close, how come she didn't tell me? This is not how I sounded when we talked earlier this morning, I told her it doesn't matter if she didn't tell me right away when it started, what matters is that she told me. My heart was broken but what can a friend do? I could only be happy for her.

I was excited for the the Manila Spirit '08. It's an international frisbee tourney. I was eager to join. I told Gelo I would. I was even trying to find out how much should I save for the league fee. I really want to play because I wasn't able to play for the last league. I don't want to quit this one although I'm still having a hard time connecting with the people in the disc community. I still want to play frisbee.

All of a sudden a felt sad, my heart was broken when I remembered I have a flight to Palawan this November and it's the same date with the tourney. The flight was already booked and I know I couldn't back out. What's a confused brokenhearted got to do?